I’m not comfortable writing fanfic because I’ve internalized the idea that it’s trash and a waste of time.
it’s absolutely not- i know that my words will probably not help all that much, but i’m gonna try, because there’s nothing worse than wanting to write something but being unable because of those internal blocks.
there’s a couple of different angles that i can or have approached fanfiction from, when i want to write it. one, fanfiction literally fills a hole, that you think needs to be filled- be it representational, plot-wise, etc. there’s nothing wrong with wanting to explore that. so much published literature is doing the same thing, after all. you’re exploring it for you, for your readers, for your own comfort and peace of mind.
two, majority of actual published pieces are some level of fanfiction- not all pieces, mind you, but so much of it ranges from Star Wars novels to Batman comics to Sherlock rewrites to I-wrote-this-because-I-didn’t-like-what-happened-to-X-character-in-this-book. Television writers write other people’s stuff all the darned time. The difference is in having a professional editor and getting paid (and frankly if you’re coming from a place where getting paper determines the legitimacy of your writing, that’s a problem.)
and fuck, sometimes it’s just the set up for instant gratification! it’s nice as fuck to immediately get a kudo or a review or a like for your stuff. it’s nice to be able to plunge into a story and not have to introduce your readers to the characters in the same way you would a novel or short story or new television show. it’s got it’s own rules and target audience.
it’s not a waste- it’s a creative interaction with the things that you might otherwise just be sitting and watching. it’s not for everyone, sure, but neither is whatever show or book you wanna write based off of.
just write what you want to share with the world, and fuck it if someone else is like ‘it’s a waste’- because they weren’t your target audience anyway.